Thanks God I’ve such a good bro after so long so many years . Love him many . Hope it will stay .
Was quite piss off . Just because ure that way mean u can treat all other people that way too . Do you know what is the “attitude ” that make a great difference ? Hate the way and feeling when is like ” the person able to ask question and u reply ” but when I “ask a question is like why here why there ? Please at least have some basic manners some curteosy and respect also la . Even if u doesn’t like to do what u doesn’t like at least type a proper message to say . Mayb to others they can accept likethat but that doesn’t mean also can towards others what . Dunno what wrong with now peoples givin that fucktup attitude acted like a princess also . But anyway life still have to go on . From now on I need to set a different toward myself . Why do I always treat others so good and so helpful and take the time to help or what but not even a thank you at all ? Should set a difference .
Work friend is work friend
Outside friend is outside friend
Fren is a friend no more no less
Why out of all my friend and people around I’ve nobody that I’ve found really appreciate me and sincere to me ? And even say a word ” thanks you ” . Is that how all people do and treat people around that way ? I really really wonder sia . Hais . Why carnt even found at least 1 good friend or a person whom really understand u ? Why . Fucktup sia . Hais .
I’m sometime quite piss off about myself . Why does “they always treat others” more important ? Or they can go out with others but not me ? When i always see alot other people post , being thankful and appreciated but yet when I really really did I don’t receive any facebook , SMS , call , or any other thing that I really did much to help to accompany to be their listener to even did what that people never ask or require me to do but I did it to want them to be happy. Yea I always do get jealous why other I always see try have better than I do ? Why do most of the time they always get what they wanted and not ME ? Why? The question always been : why why why . Until now I’ve never receive or any good complement from any . Always just gossip always just the bad and unpleasant things . But well I know this is life ya life still goes on . But all I ever want is people around me will STAY with me , love me , protect me , care me and make me felt I’m important to them as a friend . But well I really hope 2012 will be a better years better life for me . I hope not to stay and remember any the past anymore . I just want to have a better and bright future . And infact I’m just still suck and fail in communication and interaction to strike a conversation. Cos fear to say wrong thing or say stupid thing or felt they wil get insulted . Lol! I really wonder when wil it be a day when people wil say : thanks tian en , or something appreciate , instead of bashing words or sarcastic remarks .
1st priority is family & God
2nd friends
3rd partner
4th for u to guess .
The day when I’m really so glad after this 20 years I’ve go through all the things good , bad , suck , fucktup many etc .. But whatever choice I make and decide and do I know what I’m always been doing I know all the consequences but let me just say this u have no right to judge to say me , critise , insult , abuse me with your harsh or tough words , and let me say I’m glad for past few wk but everytime I went I still felt left out , when I go I feel I’m invisible . Let just say I prefer the way I am still . Firstly if u want to judge or stand alone on what “God” think I just think u doesn’t know anything much about me and make a prestand that like u know so much about me? Oh please. I don’t want say anything that is because I give u face . And I ownself also heard alot people also inside r faker and v judgmental. And there’re people try so hard to become a leader to do so much for 5 years and was being still judge by her looks and everything . But please I know it v well . I’ve watch how people from since secondary school till what I am today ? U think I doesn’t know how life ? How working life ? How Singaporean was like ? Please lo. I’ve go through so many I know how to handle and what to do. Please dont say until ure so good person or what or how much effort to build in a person or whatever . I tell u in life everything got to do with your hands your leg your effort your education your character your attitude and target to achieve what u have to do . I was from a shit becomin what I am to a better person of myself . But There’re still alot mistake and imperfect in me . But I don’t anyhow assume and judge people . Also had enough all these shit and rubbish . This 2011 wil be over . Unessary /unimportant thing put it aside do what that is impt and what is need to be done . I can I can be better I can excel in all things . I’m a observance a watcher !
Anything can comment tag my wall post at chat box ! Haha. Be nice ;)
I’ve my own unique way . Just a matter of wheather you really want to know me more ;) I’m born this way ;)
Love working at this job . A first time I really enjoy working . Really enjoy quite alot . Most of the time we always choose a job but never had enjoy really cos most of us did find Job and work is because of money but not the interest the joy in it . It’s v different . Just like going a school course ure not interested to. Lol! Met so many great friend great peoples around . Really so happy and grateful . Such like pearlyn , phoebe , aisah , Livia , yuki , christine , Diana and so many other etc .. . Really must appreciate and treasure them like a gem. Really really hope for a long last friendship and not the word that peoples gave false hope “don’t worry will not apart will be v v good ” but it’s felt like a false hope liying. Can anybody tell me how to maintain a friendship when , doesn’t contact? Doesn’t text much? Doesn’t meet up oftenly ? Doesn’t even talk much? U know and I know really wil be apart the lo. It take 2 hand to clap seriously. Yea.
Merry christmas to all ;)
Just wanna to say been a v long
Month no tumblr no much update sometime just feel lazy feel speechless . Life there always up n down it’s nv meant to be life perfect because there it nv meant to hv . That past few month hv been nt a very gd memory too . Because I wanted to leave n left that is all in de past. Although most of the time been quite alone nv went out much wif ppls too . N I learnt to grow out of the things that is unessary what priority must go do n impt . N just recently finish my exam paper no more been more free n less stress to anything . And recently I’ve always been sometime going church I learnt many new stuff :) that is so meaningful :) u should learnt too ;)
This what I learn
• > If you wanna do something expect a result u got to change n do others thing if u wanna expect a different result
Same ppls from de land but different eye/view
Small ppls see problem as big big ppls see problem as small . It’s de perspective of how you tink urself .
R/s -big ppls does nt fight wif small ting. Small ppls r easily offended . Mature Christian r nt petty they’re nt small minded.
Is how he treat small ppls well.
Small ppls engage in small talk
Big ppls engage in big talk
Small ppls just talk big
“It’s is better to have 100 mice by a lion den 100 lions commanded by a mouse .”
Small ppls feel big among small ppls
Feel small among big ppls
Big ppls r faithful to small things
Small ppls r faithful in big ting
• > faith
Faith
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen.
Do not leave by side by walk but by faith
Faith give us the ability to move on to de things that unseen .
Put the word of God to a test. Faith go beyond my feeling .
Going through a faith need a process to reach the promises of God
Reckless faith is a kind of faith that disregard of consequences and giving up everything for something for a new life
Level 1 : human faith or self belief
Confidence is a attitude
It come from a position of a wearing a uniform that make us feel confidence in what we doing .
Level 2 : daily faith or faith to live by
99% of human common sense
Be a cool classic Christian
Level 3 : reckless faith -the gift of faith
Singapore v systematic
Learn so many knowledge n wisdom . Money cnt be buy. N I always rmb this word v well . What kind of friends u mix wif will become you for who ure. So always be wise . Don’t mix wrong don’t be too curious to always try de bad stuff . N I realize why do I always need to be so emo or quiet at time too . I’m sure must live a life of happy so from now I won’t think anymore abt sad or unhappy . Learn to let go sooner or it will be both harder . We only had 1 life to live . Always make it to live to the fullest. For my kind of character I always stay for who I am n what I am I don’t change for the other but I always make improve n upgrade of myself . I also don’t need any pretty gal or appearance but for me as long average normal is enuf for me . N normally I would prefer to know a person at least more den 5-6 mth befer at least to know a person well :) . I once watch meile jiayou is a taiwan show v touching n nice . He break up wif gf because he is sick he gt some brain problem n will lead to become a dumb person n go operation 15% chance success. N he hurt her badly to pretend to find a gal to make it like he fall for another gal . But the conclusion is sometime ppls action n the things they do sometime it’s just nt the real of themselves . At the end she realize that is nt the yilie that she noe n she realize at the end manage Tgt back again :) . So my conclusion is most impt thing is to know a person v well action n all these sometime it’s just nt them sometime they did it’s just had some particular reason . Hope at least those who read able to know more new lesson too haha :)
This photo is 1 of my best photo that I ever like n love ;) take a v precise accurate view to manage to take this perfect photo :) with no edit :)
It’s been such a very long time update my tumblr for past at least 8 month plus . The car design nice ;)
This is what pastor have preach ! V meaningful n touching . For this past few month n week life have been quite tough n hard for me as you noe living being independent is so hard n tough . When I watch many show ppls who r solo they tend to feel they’re so strong too naive . But when they lose to a group of person who had Fren Tgt wif them he realize that he who have Fren n ppls arnd who encourage who gave him 10x of the strength . Recently de day when I was bought in to church I’m v grateful although had some thing to settle lol. But now have been better alot . Learning to socailise n try to talk n understand more ppls into their shoes too . I wanna to prove n show to all ppls arnd me that I can make a great different a guy who is so different n live de life different n study hard n get better life n better ppls arnd and a guy who can make different in to other ppls life who can change other . Treating other de way you wanna other to treat you as . Nw current half studying half working too to pay off my another hp debt so after everything n ya should be less stress too . Exam also coming soon . Keep myself in prayer ! :) thanks to all ppls arnd me .
